me myself and i

2006-03-02T21:40:00.000+08:00

2006-03-02T00:43:00.001+08:00

omg fort minor was AWESOME!

so much better than the hormore-driven adolescent simple plan's concert. seriously. plus they had a string trio!!!! omg how cool was that. and they didnt use electric violins. pure classical ones. we needa make obligato as cool as them!! i'll play violin3 haha. *inspiring.. heh. fort minor's actually made up of various groups. the linkin park guy gathered various groups together, so the fort minor today was not really the complete one. there was style of b--- (some rap group. i cant remember their name), black violin, 3 backup singers, a fat drummer and one cool dj. no guitars for a change. damn it was cool.

things really are starting to look up now. *crosses fingers.

and i'm going bintan to snokel for earth day! yipee!

2006-03-02T00:43:00.000+08:00

2006-03-01T01:05:00.000+08:00

fuck.

i'm sorry i'm just like that. if you dont accept it, fine. so girls are not allowed to have tantrums and be unreasonable. fine. all you want is a fucking submissive s* slave. wtf. and to think i treated you better than the rest already. nobody's perfect. and nobody's perfect for anybody.

but its ok. life goes on.

2006-02-26T03:18:00.000+08:00

ripped this off grace's friendster some time ago.
Mos with the girls.

clubbing is really bad sometimes.

2006-02-26T00:43:00.000+08:00

things will look up. soon. but i cant see it yet.

my msn is fricking dead. i cant send any typed msgs, and would be lucky even to get a handwritten one through. fuck! things had just dropped a notch since yesterday. when will it start to increase?! oh right it actually did got abit better when the ae stuff came this morning. yipee for my new jacket! but t&a didnt help and neither did the fricking msn. plus i spent the entire sat rotting at home with my lappy. arghh.

the thing about relationships is that it brings you up heights u never thought possible and drops u wayyy down below. and i'm not just speaking for myself. the bad times are hellish, to quote someone. so true. why do people cling on to something they know they should let go? hope? heart over mind? humans are complicated creatures, doing irrational things even though they know there are better options elsewhere. love is such a weird thing that causes people to loose their mind.

Nothing is enough reason to do whatever u did yesterday. Nothing. whatever i did that was so god-damn earth shattering wrong, i still dont know. in fact, the more i think about it, the angrier i get. weird eh. and u know what, just forget it. i got the fort minor tix. whatever happens, i'm still going for that concert.

phew a whole load of angry posts within a few days. this must be from some bad karma i gotten from somewhere.

2006-02-25T04:06:00.000+08:00

it has been confirmed.

today has gotta be the worst day of my life.

2006-02-24T21:46:00.000+08:00

this wk must be the worst wk ever.

its friday, and i havent finished studying for my 3 midterms next wk yet. plus there's presentation and proposal for cat and another proposal for democ. all within the next 4 days. omg somebody kill me. what the hell was i doing the entire week. and to think i was so caught up just thinking about how screwed i am that i totally forgot about the cat meeting today. OMG i'm soooo guilty =( hope they dont hate me =(

went morton's on wed for an afternoon martini! cheap and decent. steak sandwiches were great but we only had one serving. morton's steakhouse next! but i heard its like 100 bucks for a gold plated steak there. seriously, i rather spend the 100 bucks on something i can keep and not shit out. zouk was infested with smu peeps. more happening than the other unis i suppose. had a flaming, champagne and tons of shots. i think i'm getting to like champagne, the bubbling fizzy drink =)

2006-02-21T01:23:00.000+08:00

this week has gotta be the worst midterm break ever.

ab psych and cat midterm on the same day next wk, plus an impossible t&a test the following day. so i got to study for those this wk. plus i signed myself up for ftt this thu, add another to my gotto-study list. throw in cat proj proposal and democ proposal, and u get one fried me. dammit.
today was wasted going to imh, tmr will have the etrial test and driving lesson, meeting on wed, ftt on thu.. where got time to study?!!! *wails. and i need 10hrs slp everyday =( i'm those kind of ppl who need tons of time to get into the study mood before starting to study. everything must be in order before starting to study at my own pace. like now i'm wasting time online when i should be sleeping. bahh

imh was interesting yet sad at the same time. those patients are locked in their wards 24/7, with nothing to see but 4 blank walls. shortage of nurses prevented them from bringing them down for a walk in the gardens. i guess the stigma is really great. somehow "mental" is associated with unpredictability and hence violence. and the padded room is nothing i imagined it to be. too much western influence, tsk. no its not white with glaring lights and pads that protrude out in intervals, rather its dark with a smooth brownish covering surrounding the entire room.

2006-02-15T23:16:00.000+08:00

i need a taggy thats more seh.

vday's a overhyped day. 3 stalks of roses for 80 bucks?! people who buy those are either stupid or desperate.

i got a nice (overpriced) levis skirt! when i saw it i was like huh?! 100+ bucks for a skirt. but the power of the brand soon won me over. (aiyah 100+ bucks leh, of course must like right) the smoothness of the denim sure puts my 20bucks-bought-in-kl jeans to shame, and the design, pure perfection *grin. and the thoughts that cumulated to that mind-blowing, pocket-burning decision was just so touching.. aww.

but the fantastic winning 11 9 game PLUS wireless xbox controller (for a totally different and superior gaming experience) totally even out things.

time to get on to democ. blahh

2006-02-14T17:44:00.000+08:00

i think blogs are invented by people who want to tell their interesting and perfect lives to the world. and blog surfing is an addictive drug, until u exhaust all the perfect lives that you can possibly read about in one day. really, why do people bother posting up numerous pics taken about inconseqential things everyday. maybe its me, but it takes so god damn long to upload one single pic that i totally gave up on it. not to mention that i dont lug my cam everywhere i go.

or perhaps blogs were invented for bored people like me who have nothing better to do than to post twice in one day.

typing is kinda therapeutic.

2006-02-14T13:24:00.000+08:00

Ra so free ah. tag so much. i got so much to say so i'll type a short post.

Oasis so nice meh. ok their OLD songs are nice, wonderwall, champagne supernova, we all know those classics. like since sec sch. what about their new album? i didnt even bother listening to their new one. anyways thats not the point. Those singers have their own style of writing and singing songs. so no matter how many albums they produce, it'll still sound like them. fantastic for their hardcore fans. boo for people like me who actually want variety. thats why i dont have one favourite band. it just changes according to my taste and mood. and thats why i dont buy albums. coz all the songs in one album sound more or less the same. its just either fast or slow. i've changed fav songs and fav band too many times to keep track, so now i just say i like all of them =)

as for the attached thingy. its up to the individual really.

happy vday everyone!
should i get a pj set or stuff my own teddy? haha

2006-02-12T00:57:00.000+08:00

i got me some tics to fort minor's concert!! weeee

and they're cheaper than franz ferdinand and oasis and jason mraz. hmm they're too new maybe? i'm so addicted to their song believe me. it rocks! go dl it.

talking about which, i've sold my wow account (*gasp) for 136 usd. could have gotten more if i've levelled up to 60 but i cant be bothered really. so now i'm back to dling stuff. sshhh. just got nickelback, james blunt and fort minor's albums =) realized i've got bleach 10-20 already downloaded from ages ago so i watched it cause i didnt want to do cat hmwk. and guess what now i'm hooked so i'm downloading 21 to 40. muahaha.

everyone's getting attached now! weee. come to think of it, almost everyone i know is now. hmm yeah. almost. its this thing (disease sounds bad) that passes around people. once someone get it, it hops on to another, then another. breakups are the same, unfortunately. at least while i was in jc.

2006-02-08T18:32:00.000+08:00

lalaaa. its been a long time since i've dated. guess this blogging thingy is dying out.

someone said i look pan-asian, not chinese today. HAHA isnt that the funniest thing. the lessons sound fun, but 3-inch heels?! it was hilarious. eye opener la.

hmm i think i shall get a new violin. or should i go dive? HMMM.
tough choice.
ang bao money dont last that long i realized.

2006-02-01T19:40:00.000+08:00

stoned in sch for 4 hours and i'm sick of surfing. for once. my mind is so numb i'm working on instincts. no mood to study laa and midterms are coming =( hols in phuket? checked out everything online. marvel at the 21st century. all i wanna do is crawl back to bed and sleep til april. my brain's rejecting all new input of knowledge, though i did finish democracy transition just now.

cny was ok. relatives whom u see once a year, the compulsory blackjack, new kids, newly weds. godma got a new house with a husky and a ty dog! so cute! i like doggies =) want a big dog next time, together with a big house. and every wkend i'll bring them to the dog run to run around with their other canine friends.

do u know the entire universe ponned IE except me?! how amazing. who cares about market failures. i rather have graphs and lines anytime. hmm i'm lost. how to participate. leave it to the scholars la. my head hurts. how would a social sci student know about the economy or market. k la thats an excuse.

2006-01-14T02:12:00.000+08:00

i missed out on mos. no biggie apparantly, though this guy friend got picked up. by a girl. hmm why dont such interesting things happen when i'm around?! i wonder what the girl looks like haha.

democ was interesting today. amazing what u can learn when u listen in class. prof's a riot, insulting everyone and everything, him included. pol sci seems really intriging right now. should i 2nd major that? argh i can never make up my mind. wk3 and yet lots of makeups still going on. why dont they start sch later and save all those makeups? haven gone to a single lesson of ie yet and i'm worried. workload's gonna be tough this sem. and i actually chose it to be this way. diao

2006-01-08T04:10:00.000+08:00

i dont like being ignored >< its like the game is more impt than me. right mr goh? right

had an especially long wkend this wk. democ was cancelled. and there's another hol next tue. woohoo what a way to start the new term. MOS was great with the girls. havent seen them in ages. rode with jan in her huge car and somehow managed to reach there in one piece yay. grace was mad as usual. the trip to chile somehow transformed ivy into a hardcore clubber. chionging everyday til 4, imagine that. and it was a nice way to spend yirong's last night here before flying off. if only fon had went. it was a night of minimum spending. not much booze and tons of dancing. tons. reminded me how long since i've went to the gym. ahh unfit.

i've gotten a jazz book for my prezzie. not on top of my wants list, but something he insisted i need. like i can turn into a jazz playing virtuoso just by using a book. still its legitimate that i insist he becomes a virtuoso drummer, not that its on top of iwanthimtobe list.

2006-01-04T01:07:00.000+08:00

t&a wasnt that bad. i actually listened in class. and all those classical theories and what nots were actually interesting. guess lappy's really a bane more than help. with my sucky gpa, its high time i do something to pull it up. wonder if doing 5 mods is the correct choice. but i have to clear them soon, or else i wont graduate. and there's still cip and internship to clear. *pulls hair out* i hate school already. and no more gaming for me i guess. i cant resist it very well and it doesnt help that someone is interning so he doesnt have to worry about studying. blah life's unfair. in fact nothing's fair anymore.

mos tmr with the girls! if only i didnt end school so late. no sch on thu yipees! and fri too since prof's in atlanta. woo. its time for sentosa finally. hope it doesnt rain.

and i had the most unhappening xmas and countdown ever. no fireworks, no squashing with screaming sweaty ppl (not that its anything good), no human or traffic jam (that's good), no nothing.

xmas eve was spent in orchard. yeah trying to soak up whatever atmosphere there was. cali pizza kitchen was great. i loved the rolls and salad and of course the pizza. yum =) left town early before the feet trampling started. the 31st was spent watching narnia with my aunt, uncle and cousin (free tic la). went to cosy bay for a super healthy mushroom steamboat. mushroom pot. with different varieties of mushrooms wow! but a mushroom is still a mushroom to me whatever exotic name you give it. first time mr carnivore goh has such a large serving of veggies and soup. enough to put him back to a pure meat diet for a few days. walked around tanjong rhu for awhile and though i studied down the road for 4 solid years, i've never ventured to this part before. and the minutes before 2006 was spent joustling with the remote, switching between soccer and i robot. and oh its 12 already. cheers with the red wine. how unhappening was that.

and i've not gotten any xmas prezzies nor 2006 prezzies yet! =(

2005-12-30T02:03:00.000+08:00

hmm. adam stinks.

MOS yesterday was alrights. place was hugee and nice. i liked the pure room, though celest hates it. its so bright compared to the usual dark club rooms. i like. felt the music was all right only. nothing great. the main room played a weird mix of music. some popular ones and some i nv heard of. one min it was good and the next it was bad. some michael jackson rhythmic one (?!) that was totally weird. the cage was good, but like phuture, jam packed to the max. that music i can relate to the most, but i cant say for the rest. meng and celest enjoyed themselves in the retro room, while adam and i occupied ourselves with the swinging seat. the decor was superbly retro. awesome. hope the bday boy had fun =)

came back from the book sale in expo with a whole truck of books. 82 bucks. oh man. u guys should go. the books are not bad and insanely cheap. it was supposed to start tomorrow but we never realized it until we came out with our spoils. lucky. yay i love new books.

2005-12-22T00:18:00.000+08:00

i got a spanking new pink razr! its hot pink! and the case is hot pink. its pink overload. thk i'll trash the case after a few weeks. too much pink. and my roxy wallet is pink too! help.

oh ya and changqi specifically ask me to put on my blog to inform everyone that he has QUIT CHIONGING. so ppl, stop jioing him to chiong. i dunno how this started. perhaps he's ready to settle down? hmmm

2005-12-16T18:42:00.000+08:00

went across the causeway ytd! met bob there too. we dont meet in sg we meet in jb. haha. shopping was good. i-dont-like-to-shop adam bought 5 shirts. more than me omg! so i went for some last min grabbing at some discount store and ended up with 5 tops. it was quite cheap! and i got some food for mummy. i wonder why we didnt buy any vcd.. we were too tired from all the walking i guess. he kept complaining the whole time though he denies it now. there's something wrong with guys' brains that twists all the facts to their advantage. the food there wasn't fantastic. ate chicken rice from a roadside stall and half way through birdflu came to my mind. i'm still alright now so no worries.

met up with amanda just now! such a busy girl she is still. and still as lame as ever. we didnt really talk about anything much but it was so good to catch up with her after soo long. she's the sort of person whose kindness will just shame you to the ground and resolve to be a better person. she has such a positive approach to everyone. but she can be a biatch too from what i remember. we all do have a nasty side. aha

did i tell u about the piece that was commissioned by smu? its for strings, band and gamelan (?!). and the glorious thing is that strings are only effectively playing 8 bars repeatedly so it amounts to 35 bars (i counted). out of 135 bars. omg how redundant are we. we're only supposed to look good so i guess thats easy. less practices yes?

2005-12-13T23:46:00.000+08:00

okok i'm blogging like finally!

the excessive gaming is totally necessary. to catch up with the guys who were playing while we poor smuggers had exams. life's unfair. but so far they've been playing like 12 hrs a day so i can hardly compare.

anyway the most dramatic thing that happened this hols was adam's house getting flooded. i'm so serious. there was this storm one night and there was a mini waterfall gushing into his tiny backyard. his kitchen got flooded and i was there trying to stop the water flow with his sister but it was useless coz even though we stopped the bottom of the door it came through the sides and the gaps in the window. it was totally unbelievable. water got out from his kitchen and flowed through his house and out the front door. picture that. they called the civil defence (!) but they didnt do anything much but walk around in their big boots and talking through their walkie talkies. there was a pretty cute guy too ;) anyway the water subsided by itself and all was well. only his house was suay. the others didnt have a waterfall in their backyard.

and did i tell u i spent a bomb on adam's bday? well i'm telling u now. we went to black angus for their superior steak. it was fantastic. tender yet juicy. u have to taste it to know it. all other steaks pale in comparison. and then we went shopping til our legs broke. literally. he got a swatch irony and ripcurl cap. and i got a mambo skirt! and i paid for ALL OF IT. omg. just for the ipod. *faints. oh ya there's a hugee apple store in wheelock. the nano is just so pretty! sigh. i think its time to think about MY birthday thats just around the corner ;)

so thats it. my life so far. when are we gonna chiong? cq quit chionging. quick everyone faint. i thk he's really to settle down when the right girl comes along. heh. i cant imagine that day coming though.

2005-11-16T18:25:00.000+08:00

finished my paper but i cant get down to studying yet. ft assignment at the back of my head. i'm like in the stage where i'm free, though i got tons of things to do. i'm just not bothering about them now. you know the feeling?

i like mornings. weirdly since i'm more of a night person. sometimes the sun shines just the way it should in the mornings. sunny and warm. the afternoon sun is different. glaring and scorching. i cant describe it, words arent my thing, but the feeling is nice. i used to have dreams where i'll be under this perfect sun beside the sea. i'll be shopping with my girlfriends and the ground is made up of cobbled stones. it seems like the mediterranean i suppose. exotic yet beachy. i'll definately go there one day.

i like coffee places too. nice ambience and i love the different varieties they have there. xmas drinks are out! if i have unlimited money i'll drink one everyday. i'll also have taquitos and hot chocolate everyday. subway is good too. one can always dream. 40 bucks can barely last me a week. i need more tuition money.

it'll be nice if smu have nicer outdoor places. the only ones now are the benches below the schools and at the lib. why does everyone coop themselves up in gsrs. its so cold. hmm yeah the weather's a bitch i agree.

harry potter! yeay its coming out! cho chang is so ugly. and she's bigger than harry potter. arent there any nicer looking asian girls in uk? siok or fon should have went to audition. haha.

2005-11-15T22:44:00.000+08:00

totally random post.

apparently spore has been hit by a wave of "hot" bloggers. all those fair skinned doe eyed girls. why dont new paper do an article about male bloggers? the latest girl is dawn yang or something. yeah i think she had surgery. go read grace's blog for more info. people did all kinds of analysis on her before and after pics. she looks like an ang moh seriously. all her before pics are so.. asian. maybe she whitened her skin like mj. shrugs. yeah she's pretty now, but how can she live with herself? lying to the whole world. think she even got a contract with mediacorp or sthg. life's disgusting

and disgusting it is. i failed my dip. yeah its sucks but its not really affecting me hard now. all the money wasted. it totally killed whatever little interest i still had for piano. ohwells. with 200 more bucks each month, i think i can afford to eat subway everyday.

yay i'm done with my rmss report. i hate him. how can the fucking final be 50%?! and the difficult report only 20%. arghh

2005-11-05T15:26:00.000+08:00

driving's a bitch.

i have new admiration for people who drive manual cars. adam not included cause his head will get all big and fat and he'll start saying how girls cant drive blahblah. its not like i cant drive, i can. the instructor even said i'm a fast learner. hah. its just that i dont really like it. think i'm destined to be driven around forever. the cooper's really nice though a bigger car wont hurt haha. oops i didnt say that =)

sch's really a draaaggg. term paper, presentations, reports, omg. can i have a longer hols?

on a side note, i got my devout sandals! ok i think i better distinguish between wow and reality. or else people (like zhong) will get confused and think i really gotten a horse or a rabbit.

i should really be studying now. but i dont wanna!

2005-11-02T16:13:00.000+08:00

i check my blog more often now. usually i just come here whenever i'm free or when wow has maintenance. haha. mahjong sucks. i rather give my money to blizzard than meng. my luck is atrociously horrible these days. i'm better off gaming seriously.

sh: med student of coz must mug mah. that's why you're there! we'll meet up during hols then. my pathetic 3 wk dec hols.

ivy: lunch soon? i nv see you around sch. =( oh ya i sell you my flute k? its practically yours alr.

ra: dont be silly. play too much mj then brain mashed up right. next time remind me not to play mj again. or you set up a mahjong for fun club and me and zh can join =)

prataz: i'm the most relaxed person around. haha i like milo dino but its fattening!

2005-10-31T16:33:00.000+08:00

for the first time in my blogger history, i actually have to scroll down to read comments. amazing. my taggy has become hot! heh

anyway thanks to everyone for caring =) for the first time i have to reply to tags via a post.

elfy: thanks for your msgs. we'll talk when we meet up yeah? plenty of projs to rush still. sch sucks

shihui: where have u disappeared too?! how's life? i dont even see u online anymore. boo i got stuff to tell u too! i havent clubbed in a million years. meet up soon! just drop me a msg. miss you girl =)

ra: thanks for your encouraging msgs =) even though u always suck my money during mahjong, i wont wont play with you. hah. u study hard too k?

zhangy: i started driving alr. for the entire 2nd lesson he made me drive around the circuit 100 times. damn boring. eh u pass your final theory already not? still waiting for a ride in your car!

nobody: is that you aik heng?

somebody: so what is southpark's fav beer? i'm not lame enough to think of an answer haha. hmm i'm not really sure who you are. prataz sort of remind me of my twc ta. hahaha. anyway i agree that solitude is good sometimes. everyone needs some time alone. =)

2005-10-28T22:49:00.000+08:00

i hate the way you dont take me seriously. like everything is just me being silly. sometimes these things actually mean something to me and i hate it when u brush me off like an ant on your shirt.

i also hate the way you talk to me, like i dont mean anything or is just there to make fun of. and when things you say affect me the reverse is never true. so i think i'll give up talking to you. communication was never your thing i realize.

i did alot of thinking. not all rational, but i think i've sorted out my thoughts. i'll just live my life and not care so much. looking back, i feel stupid about the things i've done. i'm tired. really. verbalizing all my needs and problems is just so draining.

anyway whats the point of putting everything here when it only serves to emphasize the first point. everyone else is more concerned than the antagonist.

i dont need you. loneliness can actually be comforting.

2005-10-27T13:14:00.000+08:00

think my mood fluctuates. weirdly. some things can really piss me off. period.

Strings ytd was pathetic. there was only me and dikun and the conductor. thats all!! like fuck i came all the way from home just for this and i made up a third of the entire population. aside from the pathetic attendance, prac was actually fun! we played trios and it sounded good for sightreading. godfather was nice, but i think i slaughtered the melody. ohwells, besides the point that half the time i have no idea what they're talking about, and some guy came and told super lame jokes, it was good coz i got lift home =) yay. he asked me to play in some ensemble, which vaguely reminded me of swo. charity events, adult players, yeah its the same. but thinking back, i think i better not commit so soon. guest player status sounds good. i miss playing in a group =(

2005-10-25T20:43:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling all angsty and bitching and pmsy. alot of things seem to piss me off recently.

i dont like stinky people near me on the mrt during peak period. firstly they stink, so stop holding the bar above. secondly, i dont like breathing in shallow breaths until my stop since they never get off the train. i either have to stop taking train or start bringing an oxygen tank with me.

baby prams should not go onto the train at all. they take up freaking damn space that's already so limited and kids should be banned from screaming and shouting in public places. there should be a device that only lets them do so at home.

i dont like people not replying my sms or calls. like hello! since i made the effort to type out a freaking sms or press your numbers to contact you, cant you at least hit the reply or call button and redial my number? is it too much for your fingers to move this much? oh right, you have much better things to do.

and i absolutely abhor people who dont mean what they say. if you say something, you better mean it, or else why bother saying it in the first place? paying lip service does not work for me. you say you'll fucking stop smoking if i do this this this, and when i do all those u act dumb and pretend to be all innocent and shit. there's no infinite chances, when you use up your quota, its the end of the road. anyway whatever man. its not my lungs which are turning black. why should i care so much in the first place. go kill yourself. its not like you read this anyway.

this is really random.
sometimes its really weird. maybe i'm weird. it doesnt feel right, so i distract myself. its not that i play alot, its just that i have nothing else to occupy myself with and it takes my mind off things. and i hate the way you talk to me like you know everything when actually you know shit. i dont like it when u take things lightly, especially when it involves me. since u dont give a shit about me, i shall reciprocate. celest made so much sense. i'm already trying my fucking best but it doesnt seem enough and nobody really understands.

i've no idea what i just typed. my fingers kept moving when my mind remained blank. doesnt that happen sometimes. anyway it doesnt make much sense. even to me.

alrights i'm feeling better after all these.

2005-10-19T01:24:00.000+08:00

scroll down to play with my tiger!

move your mouse left and right to make him crazy. haha

too bad i cant feed him like the fish

2005-10-18T14:06:00.000+08:00

ohh lecture on love. how do you ever manage to measure love? intimacy? passion? commitment? how interesting. yet i'm blogging. i want my test back! ok not right now but soon ok? does similarity attract really?

ft this morning was inspiring. i think i need a challenging and creative job. alot of thoughts but none concrete yet. resume writing! argh! and i like being quiet. no not really. shush i can already hear you.

research methods! argh. all i wanna do is to walk my rabbit =( i dont wanna respec to holy. i love my shadowform.

2005-10-13T22:41:00.000+08:00

brewerkz in 2 days! omg they're eating all my money up. discovered and i do not have an affinity with beer. no matter how light or refreshing or sweet or nice-tasting it claims to be, beer is beer and it always be bitter. magaritas for me anytime thanks. i'm still bursting now, but the chicken is still nice, though too much.

clarke quay is cool at night. with people and nice lights and the reverse bungee. iguana next time yeah.

i got my new funky specs, but i thk i look weird. hmm.. that wasnt how i felt when i was trying it on. ohwells.

and i have not officially started studying for research methods. help!

2005-10-11T22:10:00.000+08:00

k i'm updating. finally =)

recess break. my ass. i've been going to school early for the past days. worst than normal school days i tell you. and research methods is a biggest pain in the entire freaking world. like wtf do you write a book about something so technical and make it sound faintly artsy by adding the word social. deliberately deceiving. and then u talk about scientific methods following a pattern and turn it all around by saying social scientists are worse off and no freaking pattern whatsoever have been found. maybe social exchanges are not a science then? yeah? paradigm shift i tell you.

korean shows are such a dragggggg. they stare into each other's eyes like forever and ever and keep saying each other's names. ya. ok i get the point. move on. and the story is such a bitch with a submissive actress and scheming step-mother. hope a happy ending is in store. or else.

and i got my snowshoe rabbit!! =)

2005-10-02T21:55:00.000+08:00

social psych is such a chore.

went to an art gallery with mummy. i liked those more abstract ones when she likes those straight forward ones with clear lines and objects. duh. i cant appreciate art for the life of me. sure i like the colours and how the lines and swirls go, but ask me why i like it specifically and i'll be at a loss. time for some art appreciation classes dont u think. i hardly know the difference periods of art like i know about music. the irony.

hols are coming, but i dont feel anything? i'm just waiting for the sem break. sch suddenly feels very short. waste of money.

2005-09-25T21:49:00.000+08:00

first string performance!
hah it was kinda okay. dont think we could really be heard cause we had to play soft all the time. and strings are not naturally loud like brasses are. the highlight was definately the rock band. and the electric violin! the conductor played it. and it sounded exactly like vanessa mae, if u excuse the hiccups. it was damn seh la! feel more motivated to practise my violin now =) =D talking to the string people, it kinda weird when i cant relate to what they say. when they talk about mendelssohn and tchaikovsky, we talked about shostakovich and james barnes (HAHA). a total new experience. cant wait to see what it'll bring. a new violin maybe?

the ntu performance was pretty good. glad that last week was over.

more econs now. sigh. i need to stop playing!

2005-09-20T16:38:00.000+08:00

sch is sucking me dry.

tried shisha that day with cq, adam, and friend. 6 years of band really showed then. haha. the apple one was sweet while i didnt really like the coffee. its been a long time since i've been out in TOWN so late. what a no-lifer.

its so lame that we missed the dunman gathering. we reached at 8+ but apparently everyone had left and was home already. guess it wasnt that interesting. hah. so zhihui it wasnt my fault.

oh i joined string. as an insignificant member. but ohwells at least i'm in some cca =)

see this is the reason why i dont blog much. my life is much too prosaic to put down in words.

2005-09-15T13:05:00.000+08:00

ssk flew off! it sort of hit me when she was going into the gate. i know its dumb but i couldnt help but feel a teeny weeny bit sad. flying back on a 13.5 hr flight alone (though she has her own personal tv and games which would probably keep her entertained for 20hr), taking a bus to exeter alone (she'll probably catch up on her sleep lost playing games during the flight), and moving into a brand new house with her frens. ok i guess she'll be fine. not to mention she's going kilimanjaro in dec!! freaking lucky. take more pics! write! and buy t-shirtS for me. heh. take care k.

i just realized the full impact of sch is going to hit me unconscious in 2 wks time. so nxt wk i'm going to be a good girl and start on my review and project and tests and not play wow. til then, i'm going to try to hit 40 this wkend. and get my horse!

damn somebody help me.

oh ya. piano exam was a bitch. how the fuck would i know whether haydn was beethoven's teacher or what u call a note with a dot and line. ok i'm supposed to know that. but i dont really care how richard strauss influenced bartok's music or wtf he was doin when he met him.
ok i hope i dont fail. really.

research methods sucks!

2005-09-08T10:05:00.000+08:00

yesterday was a very expensive day.

first the salon misspelt my name, but thats just a minor glitch. second SOMEBODY told me it'll cost only 30+ bucks, but it ended up to be 52.50. wtf. but the big thing was that it took 3HRS! and so i missed my studio booking that cost 40 freaking bucks and the people there weren't even friendly enough to change the date for me. freaking idiots. ARGH

i like his hair. but nvm mine's ash green =)

2005-09-06T23:02:00.000+08:00

argh everything sucks now.

i desperately need a new violin. and to think i'm gonna join the string ensemble. wtf.

2005-08-30T23:42:00.000+08:00

oohh ok i'm updating.

nothing much in my life. piano exam coming, programme notes not up, and pieces are still in pieces. that sucks. i need a new violin, and am seriously contemplating splurging 1k on a good one instead of an inferior one. i'm gonna join the string ensemble! if i actually make my way down to sch on wed instead of wowing. oh and i'm playing the violin, of all things, in some ntu production. thanks to ivy.

thats it. my life in 5 lines. pathethic.

oh yes i forgot to mention school. my horrible timetable of 3 lessons in a day. 2 day wk, so what? i rather go to sch everyday and have time to slack. yup.

tues nights are boring. i hate maintenance.

2005-08-19T22:38:00.000+08:00

its not my usual style to do this kind of things. so i dont really know why i'm doing this. hahaha

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY
1. terese
2. rox
3. t-poh

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD
1. kyriel
2. jaded
3. terese

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE
1. black hair
2. yellow skin
3. chicken rice

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
1. breaking my fingers
2. losing any part of my body or my senses
3. not loved

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS
1. hp
2. internet
3. warcraft. haha

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW
1. clothes
2. specs
3. earrings

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS
1. nickelback
2. 3 doors down
3. green day

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS
1. i just wanna live
2. megalomaniac
3. sympathique

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP
1. fun and laughter
2. communication
3. love

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1. wanna sail around the world in a boat
2. start a rock band
3. i secretly like singing

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU
1. looks
2. hair
3. seh. (haha)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES
1. getting musically involved in any way
2. WOW
3. doing something new

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW
1. go on an extreme holiday. white water rafting, diving, skiing, bashing through forests in a jeep.
2. get a stradivarius. ok a decent violin will do fine.
3. get a steinway

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED
1. air stewardess
2. world class musician (i'm kidding)
3. work in an MNC

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION
1. new zealand
2. europe
3. disneyland again!

THREE KID'S NAMES YOU LIKE
1. kyle
2.
3.
i dont see myself having kids now.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. have a happy family
2. tour the world
3. enjoy my twilight years with my other half

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY
1. chor luo
2. vulgar at times
3. i dont doll myself up everyday

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL
1. i go crazy over shoes and bags. i can never have too many bags
2. gossip alot
3. i like to dress up and look pretty sometimes

THREE FEMALE CELEB CRUSHES
1. angelina jolie
2. wong lilin
3.

THREE MALE CELEB CRUSHES
1. the guy frm bend it like beckham
2. edison chen
3. shawn yue?? i've no idea

THREE PEOPLE THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW
1. Ra
2. ssk
3. anybody else that bothers

2005-08-16T12:37:00.000+08:00

settler's cafe ytd was fun!
even though we walked the entire clarke quay and boat quay to find that elusive cafe. takes you back to those days when you actually sit down and play board games with your friends, and not online games. we have to go back again!

speaking of online games, world of warcraft is taking up a huge part of my time now. haha. its damn fun! but i prefer to play solo than in groups. better chances of leveling up and stuff. however i'm a priest which is good in healing and not fighting. damn.

chalet on wed! then its back to sch on tues. =(

2005-08-09T22:22:00.000+08:00

lonliness. this strange empty feeling.

time changes people doesnt it. though it provides more questions than answers.

love hurts. then why do we love at all?

i feel like an immaterial speck in your busy life. is it a chore to talk or meet up with me? amidst all your wonderful friends and warcraft? no i dont think i'm being oversensitive. its just the way i am, like it or not.

2005-08-07T21:33:00.000+08:00

asian civilization museum's nice. the reception held there had a chocolate fountain! thk i ate enough for a few people. hey it was a buffet. some prof at the university of hong kong actually managed to unfluence us that hong kong's THE place to go. no wonder he's in charge of marketing for his sch.

this conference made me think more about my future. and i'm actually motivated to start doing well in school. when did that ever happened man. so i'm gonna work towards a 2nd degree in business =) perhaps its the influence of those older ppl arnd me, talking about entrepreneurship, networking, getting the right contacts and stuff, that i'm actually turning into someone thats thking abt the future NOW and not later in year 3 or what. very nice words. lets see how long this will last.

on an entirely different note, it sucks when everyone's busy with their lives and i'm not part of it.

my own life seems pretty pointless and meaningless. it sucks.

2005-08-02T00:55:00.000+08:00

i caught a cold. so untimely. it must be the 2003 baileys rj had and insisted was ok. i didnt know there were so many chic liquer around. max brenner's fondue was heavenly =) siokie i hope u had a great time, though we didnt do anything amazing, just plain hanging out.

happy 20th birthday girl!! to many more years of friendship!

yay i have harry potter to read! although everyone says it sucks, but its still harry potter!

2005-07-27T23:42:00.000+08:00

plans always dont go as smoothly as they should. perhaps supper would be a better idea. hmm

the island was pretty long. i thought it ended when they escaped, but no they had to be good and go back to save the others. rather heroic, but rather long-winded too.

and imagestation is a pain in the ass. its sooo hard to upload pics!

2005-07-25T23:16:00.000+08:00

pics from kl! i'll upload more into an album

elfy and me!

nice pic of the "brothers". did i tell you koof got picked up by a trans? haha

all of us!

kl zouk

us with bouncer bob haha

2005-07-25T19:19:00.000+08:00

it seems like some insignificant thing to you but it means alot to me.
i dunno why but its just like that.

i hate myself.

2005-07-25T00:39:00.000+08:00

you think a simple call and a sorry can make up for everything.

well, you thought wrong. fuck off. i'm sorry i thought about you so much.

words are just words.
they dont mean anything

2005-07-22T13:58:00.000+08:00

so i got myself into this shit. rafting and trekking just dont complement my piano lessons. the exam's not far away and i'm still crap. plus i dont really like practising much. why did i even started taking up piano again.

really hope the rafting's worth all these. and of coz it better be fun.

cq's a good talking cock buddy. brought out some new points that are rather disturbing. its hard to find someone who even bother to listen to what i have to say. no i'm not talking about cq. he just talks about his interesting self.

sadness turns to anger. for some reason i dont understand, i'm actually resentful of everything.

2005-07-20T23:08:00.000+08:00

i got my chinchillas! but they dont seem to like me =( still breaking into the new environment i think. and they're not mating. yet, i hope. sigh. and the black one seems so depressed i'm scared he'll die or sthg =( he just lies with his face on the floor or through the hole in the wood. he's smaller than the female which i dont know if its the norm. hope he's alright. i dont see him eating, but since he shits so damn alot i guess his diet's ok.

chalet was alrights la. abit weird on the 2nd day but still nice to just talk about stuff.
band presentation at esplanade was fantastic. dunman was awesome, the dynamics, the neatness, everything was so much better than what we were before. st andrews were good too. very together, very much better than ac. the jc bands were good too. its not that vj band's lousy, its just that we dont practise as much as them. thats why.

i actually miss playing in a band. dhssb to be exact. everybody comes together, each playing their own part, and the result is something so wonderful that you cant find that feeling anywhere else. even though we went through shit and everything horrible, that's the memory that sticks hard until now.

it sucks when you're incontactable. i cant call you to whine or talk or watever. hate your lousy phone. and you seemed so busy to even call.

i miss you so goddamn much =(

2005-07-16T15:48:00.000+08:00

long saturday afternoon.

i actually went down and squeeze with the thousand or so people who were crazy enough to delude themselves into thinking that there was a remote possibility they could win a mazda 6. (read: adam goh)
totally stupid.

busy wk ahead. chalet, orientation and rafting. hope rafting would not be a let down.

and i just remembered i havent exactly paid for it.

2005-07-13T23:17:00.000+08:00

i wanna get a chinchilla!
they're so cute and furry. and low maintenance. =)
my i.5 wk pay will go all into it i guess. they cost like 200+ on average for those standards ones. super chins fetch like 800 to 1000. OMG.

happiness only brings sadness. why bother at all?

2005-07-09T22:14:00.000+08:00

i like chocobo!

i like the happy chocobo songs! i like the cute chicobos! =)

yeah i'm outdated but so what.

trekkin yay!

2005-07-07T23:09:00.000+08:00

work is b o r i n g.

i'm not suited for brainless jobs. ok i like the colleagues, they being in their 30s and yet still so young at heart. maroon 5?! i like the free stuff, i like listening to my ipod the entire day. dont like the monotony of packing. its so brain-numbing. the only time i use my brain is to count the amt of sweets per pack. which is like duh.

i realized adults are just like us. plus the age difference. thats all. they still bitch and gossip about people around them. the office is like a mini school. proximity determines who you hang out with, go to lunch with, which side you're on basically. its kinda weird. makes me give up talking behind people's backs.

2005-07-05T23:42:00.000+08:00

my foofpad has arrived!

yay. it may seem stupid to spend more on my ipod, but i dont care =) it looks and feels nice. though i expected it to be furrier.

got a job packing chocs. sounds dumb, but at least its money. considering that i've handed him 1000 bucks in CASH today. i never thought money could be this painful.

2005-06-30T23:20:00.000+08:00

check out the bottom of this page. celest made me do it. *rolls eyes* she's spreading the pool of love to everyone arnd her. haha. it screwed up my layout so much i just had to put it at the bottom. ohwells. whenever you scroll down you'll see it. wow. so much for capturing attention. anyways i still love celest =D i love the slippers and chocs!! thanx so much gal =)

spent the day gossiping (as usual) with my partner in crime. no wonder we cant study together!! matric was pretty ok. free new zealand ice cream! i had 2 servings =) free lunch and water too. save money + clock up cip. fantastic.

2005-06-29T01:28:00.000+08:00

*new pics up*

i've finally uploaded ALL my pics. Looking through the pics, US seemed really fun! though the excitement level was lesser when we were actually there. the bulk of the pictures were taken in disneyworld. enthusiasm was remarkably more in the first week than the second. we woke up progressively later and set off for our destination only almost to lunchtime. someone was hooked to the jerry springer and the maury show. how can anyone be so interested in extra-marital affairs, homosexualism on a daily basis?!

mock orientation camp was alrights. it pays not to be a faci. haha. bridge, beds, air-con, it was even better than having a chalet. one whole bed to myself. woohoo~.

2005-06-24T00:54:00.000+08:00

yay new template.

more pictures to be up =)
i haven't finish uploading all the disneyworld's pics yet!

2005-06-21T02:24:00.000+08:00

i've officially got a 2 day wk.

how fantastic is that. 2 fucking full days of sch. 830 to 645 thank you very much. all those fucking ss profs loves tue and thu late classes. and i cant take the wed democ class coz the fucking exam clashes with twc. wtf!!! after all that i've paid they cant even organize a decent timetable for us. who should i email to complain?

2005-06-18T18:25:00.000+08:00

is my violin really that lousy?! he made it sound like its e worst thing ever. anyways i'll go down n repair it soon. when the mood comes that is.

met up with zh, grace, yixian and yq ytd. like finally. all of them were food freaks. supper freaks to be more exact. cheesecake cafe then 85.was like some major gossip session, ahem, catching up session. then mahjong at my place! zhihui seemed pretty lost trying to learn the game. donch worry, still got a whole truckload of teachers available in the east =) grace was like some seasoned pro who kept complaining we were slow. relac la! yq was the lucky one that day. lucky nv play money! we should do that more often =) band chalet maybe?

my ps memory card died. just when i spent an hr getting the zell card and now i have the quistis card too. bah. yes i'm slow, yes i'm still playing ff8 yesyesyes. i suck. if anything happens to my game, i'll stop playing it forever. when until i feel gungho enough to start again.

yay elfy coming back alr! lets bid for the same classes! ssk's coming back too!! yay!!

2005-06-17T01:24:00.000+08:00

well. so far hols have been a flop.

batman was kinda good. not the typical batman show with the penguin and joker and metal-clad enemies. it started with batman's childhood then progressed to him trying to find his identity. show was kinda long i thought, but quite good.

finally caught up with amanda ytd after a gazillion years. girl got herself a lovey dovey bf. all caught up in their little love world. awww. sweet. cheesecake cafe just rounded up the day nicely. she's still her usual spaz self, actually wanted to pronounce all the weird thai names on the thai express menu. *diao. i would have died of hunger waiting for her to go through the entire list. and they were there feeding each other and planting small kisses everywhere, while i was trying desperately to occupy myself with the menu and water and cursing adam for not being there. pda just feels weird especially if its your friends. well, but i'm truly happy for her, seeing her glowing with happiness. meet up again when ssk comes back!

i'm actually excited about sch starting, with the new campus and all. no more climbing up the stupid hill! all the best to all the nus law students! haha

reading what i wrote last time really makes me cringe. its disgusting.

2005-06-15T00:20:00.000+08:00

i'm actually enjoying my slacker life now. wake up at 1, 2 pm, make my instant mee. then its ff8 time. haha. stop laughing. although i nv get every single thing there, although i nv use all those special shit confusing powers, although i dunno how to junction stuff properly, although i dont know what they're saying about status and elemental stuff and whatever, i'm still trying my best ok! and i still managed to kill all those beasts and get all the gfs. so i'm still quite ok. =)

oh yes, pics are on the way. uploading is so tiring. i dont understand how ppl can upload pics on their blogs everyday. its beyond this slacker.

2005-06-14T00:51:00.000+08:00

this pms thingy's worst than i thought. i was suddenly bitten by this depression bug and almost cried for no fricking reason at all. no reason at all. how weird was that. does that count as bipolar maniac depressive? guess there's a schizo in everyone of us then. just how serious it really is. i'm starting to scare myself.

mr and mrs smith was a pretty good show. filled with action and .. more action. and the main characters would never die even though there was the entire swat team or something up against them. cliche.

2005-06-12T23:20:00.000+08:00

i dont know why i'm so jaded about the opp species these days. its not targeted at anyone in particular, just in general. feministic to the max. maybe its the pms thingy. its like i totally agree with sh and anna and all girls that complain about guys. haha. yeah girls rule.

feeling pmsy all day. cramps are the worst. then again pms isnt all that bad -- it lets you get away from being bitchy and angsty and all that shit. it really isnt my fault. blame it on hormones.

received free tics to the pck musical. if it wasnt free, i would have throw 85 bucks into the singapore river. wasnt worth that much. lame story, though gurmit singh and the margaret sang really well.

i'm really trying hard to be understanding this time round, for some weird reason. previously i would have thrown a tantrum and expect to be pacified. spoilt, pampered, whatever. i dont deny that. maybe amanda was right. i actually feel bad now for not feeling remorseful those previous times. but this time seems different. more good side than bad side, more brain than feelings, more effort. be grateful. though trust is something i guard fiercely and have never given it totally away before. perhaps the wall i've built is too high? all i've let are some stray bricks scattered around to be pulled out.

i dont understand myself at all.

2005-06-12T00:38:00.000+08:00

i gave up an 8/hr job for this 6/hr shit and this is how u treat me. no word, no nothing until a wk ltr. fine, if you dont need me at least call right? i'll go get a 7/hr job and rub in your stinking faces.

i know its not right but i cant help it. it was practically in my face dammit. felt weird, even though i knew it was nothing. thinking of it now still makes me cringe. the words just gagged me. the more i think, the worse i feel now. better not to think then.

but my brain has a mind beyond my control.

2005-06-11T01:25:00.000+08:00

checked out the jazz pub at expo with cq and ra. what jazz?! the music was barely jazz half the time. cheaters. it had this party gal walking around talking with the customers. wasnt rawdy or anything, just pretty tame and boring. good money to make anyways. decided beer's not really my thang, though corona's abit more bearable perhaps of the lime. think i'll stick with cocktails next time.

did i mention i love my ipod? =)

and i need to upgrade my violin. apparently its not me that's lousy. haha.

i dont even bother dressing up these days. its just top and 3 quarts or tshirt and shorts. what's there to dress up for? noone to impress and the clothes just go into the wash when i get home. guess i dont see any point in it. oh no. am i getting old?! is this bad? i feel so un-feminine. ohwells.

i need to get black pants for work. sianz. come visit me ppl! robertson quay.

and i've only uploaded the first 3 days of disneyland. loonnggg way to go. sigh.

2005-06-09T16:59:00.000+08:00

oh yeah ipod's up and running =) online help's the best thing of the century. and apple has one of the most extensive around. forums for brains to help technophobes etcetc. and people are really helpful. so anyways, i hope it stays fine the way it is now, since i've only 256mb left. and its only the 2nd day! darn, i need more space. but i still love my ipod =D

watched the hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy ytd. bet you didn't know it was british. and the nice looking robot was just some depressed, moping piece of metal with the brain the size of a galaxy. you would expect it to play a more major role. the show was pretty lame, the stupid king of the universe an egoistical maniac with no brains at all. oh ya, they used lemon juice to stimulate the brain, like wtf?! i give it 2.5 out of 5 galaxies, stars, watever.

staying at home is detrimental for my mental wellbeing. i wanna go cheesecake cafe! sudden urge. actually i juz wanna go out =(

2005-06-08T01:12:00.000+08:00

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bored mood again. sianz.

2005-06-07T21:52:00.000+08:00

today i finished an entire hardcover book. its kinda good. three by ted dekker. about multiple personality disorder. the guy had 3 different personalities. whew. the good, the bad, and the poor soul caught between. it talked about stuff such like people choose evil, how gossip is evil, how the bishop is capable of gossip with is no different from murder blahblah. hmm. anyway i finished the book and started reading chapters in my psych text that i was supposed to read but nv got down to doin. i need to get out of the house!

and why isnt my ipod here yet.. =(

i thk its kinda cool to sail around the world in your own yacht. of coz its an expensive sport. damn. i need a basic sailing cert and then the kneel boat or something lidat. sounds complicated. damn.

disjointed thought. i wanna go out =(

i miss you

2005-06-06T23:13:00.000+08:00

interesting happenings:
2 yellow crested birds tried building a nest on my pathetic plant with pathetic branches, which obviously failed. tsk. young couples. so cute. so dumb.
a moth flew in and started hopping around my carpet. refused to fly out. ended up dying my floor. like wassup with that man.

i got a job (finally) its like 3 - 12, and the best thing is i dont have to work everyday. yoohooo. but i have to start learning how to open wine bottles. my first attempt was pretty good i must say. heh.

ipod's coming! i can smell it. yays!!

2005-06-03T23:18:00.000+08:00

public transport sucks.
the ezlink system is just a coverup so that the govt can cheat out money - without we poor innocent locals knowing.
total ripoff. up till now i still thk its a sucky system.
how would we know if they deducted the amt they showed on screen? as if everyone is math whizzes who can remember the initial value, deduct the amount shown, and check against the value shown. and add to that, they always give weird values like $0.39 or $1.24. i thought spore banned 1 cent as a currency. and they only flash that the instant u alight from buses. for that split second. and everyone's rushing off the bus like typical kiasu ppl, splitting that split second further. dont anyone care that they are getting ripped off from the govt that we oh-so revere? i seem to be the only one infuriated at the atrocity. just like the typical govt to decide everything for us. ezlink's the new technology we should embrace! its efficient and saves time blahblah. i dont really think we had a say in that previously. did we? choose the car or use public transport. coe, erp etc just deters potential car owners. so i guess i shall have to resort to cycling to sch then since i dont wanna walk. hey that might work. once i invest in some 500 bucks bike. add "highest standard of living" to the list of spore attributes.

another thing. everyone opposed that new fee hike but of coz it was still implemented. i thk smu has more democracy than the country. how ironic.

i dunno what to take as a 2nd degree! biz? econs sound more probable though. hmmmm...

i lurve ipod~ =)

2005-06-01T21:32:00.000+08:00

there's nothing to blog these days.
slack, eat, knit, slp. yeah i'm knitting!! haha how cool is that. making a hairband now. repetition's so boring. it looks kinda good and long now, though still a long way from completion. haha

dimsum tmr w cq!
hope its cheap. and its been eons since i've stepped into orchard. ok not exactly eons. but its e spore sale and all.. i wan my ipod!! at first i though i'll be fine without it, but disgustingly, i'm actually lusting about it. now. oh gross. kill me. and the new phone. =)

miss mahjong. ra!!! organize leh. with meng gone, its like the headquarters shut down or something. disgusting! ahh i'm rambling about nothing now.

i wan money!! $$

2005-05-24T23:17:00.000+08:00

i was bored out of mind. no in fact i still am. its like the entire world has watched star wars alr. without me. BAH.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

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wow it seems kinda true, except that cheating part. 100%??!! gimme some credit man.

Your #1 Match: ISFP

The Artist
You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now).You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children.Simply put, you enjoy bueaty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life.Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs.
You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer.

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wooo artist. dunno how true this is. told u i was bored.

Your Birthdate: April 25

Your birth on the 25th day of the month (7 energy) modifies your life path by giving you some special interest in technical, scientific, or other complex and often hard to understand subjects.
You may become something of a perfectionist and a stickler for details.
Your thinking is logical and intuitive, rational and responsible.

Your feelings may run deep, but you are not very likely to let them show.
This birthday makes you a more private person, more introspective and perhaps more inflexible.
In friendships you are very cautious and reserved.
You are probably inventive, and given to unique approaches and solutions.

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now this sounds kinda weird. watever. shrugs.

2005-05-24T03:30:00.000+08:00

its like 4 am and i'm totally awake.
jetlag. hmm.

uploading pics is a chore. viewing pics is probably one too, but nevertheless i'm still gonna attempt to upload the 300 or so pics i took in US. unless i lose interest, then those pics will only be up like much later.

the trip was alrights, though the next time i'm flying to US, i'll be sure to book a first class seat. spending a DAY just flying is one mean feat. 24 hours. with limited leg room and shitty chairs. argh my butt hurts just thinking about it. and i think i've walked the entire hongkong airport, which sells the highest class of branded stuff, and the biggest and largest range of cigs i've ever seen in my entire life. or maybe i'm just a mountain tortoise. but they sell like a thousand sticks in one huge box. and multicoloured cigs, and flavoured cigs which were really tempting (like why should cigs be flavoured?!), and cool ysl cigs and cigs in every brand imaginable. all i bought there was cosmo and my curiously strong mints.

so i'm going to ramble on about all the different places i went, which will result in one huge long post, which i so detest to read, but am still going to write just to satisfy myself.

our luggage got lost when we arrived in orlando. what an omen. apparently ua didn't ship an entire carton of luggage that belonged to my flight, so practically half the plane was outside the ua customer services waiting to file for lost luggage. dingdongs. we got lost trying to find the way to the hotel and the sore lack of streetlamps just exacerbated the situation. ohwells. the tickets to the themeparks were hideously expensive but what the heck.

visited disneyworld 4 kingdoms -- magic kingdom, animal kingdom, epcot and mgm studios. they had 3d shows, and when somebody sneezed on screen, u can actually feel the water droplets on you. or when the evil bug from the bug's life charged at you, u really get poked in the back and could feel bugs crawling under your butts. way cool. went to downtown disney too, which was kind of like an arcade but u play for free. it also had virtual reality games, like donning a helmet and killing aliens with your light saber. poor adam has vr sickness or sthg like that, so he didn't go totally crazy over those virtual games. the 2 water theme parks were blizzard beach and typhoon lagoon. blizzard beach had this wicked slide which was almost 10 storeys tall and practically vertical all the way down. woohoo. but it was really bad on the butts. typhoon lagoon had this surfing lagoon where huge waves occur periodically. and i mean really huge.

we also went to universal studios and islands of adventure. and sea world and busch gardens which was a freaking 1 hr drive away. busch gardens had this new rollar coaster that opens in may 2005. we went on thu and found out that it only opens on sat. like #$%^%$. its the only dive coaster in the world. 90 degress drop from 200 feet. wtf. we were too lazy to drive all the way there on sat so we missed it. damn. wet n wild was another water themepark. they had interesting rides like the disco h20 where u sit on floats and enter this dome which has flashing lights and retro music, and the hrdro fighter where u swing with a partner and shoot water at everyone. cool.

the rides in disneyworld were alrights, but not as extreme as i imagined. perhaps they tamed it down for those small kids. i decided i liked the tower of terror the best. it was like a journey to the twilight zone through an elevator and then suddenly it drops you down the shaft again and again. alrights! i prefer vertical rides to rollar coasters. at least your head stays on top of you and dont move sideways. but the doom tower or sthg like that at universals was an anti climax. they shoot u up the tower and that's it. no dramatic drop no nothing. liked the acceleration up, but felt they short changed me coz the ride was so short and duh. in short, its just hard to find a ride without small kids. argh. its hard to summarize the entire trip in just one post, so much things had happened in those short 2 wks. but i kinda missed black haired asians and rice and noodles and curry and everything singaporean. guess home is the best place.

the US had stupid shows like jerry springer and the maury shows where people go on live to tell their lovers their infidelities, and flash their boobs on national tv. even fat women. and fat men do the pole dance and show their butts to the audience. on tv. and gays kiss on screen, shocking their gfs who thought they were straight. and you hear guys fucking their gf's sister/best friend/ex-husband. anything with a girl and woman and fren in it, its a potential fucking target. even if it has a guy in it, some guys just go ahead and fuck them. screwed up morals if you ask me. and the media is not really doing anything to correct that image. its plain gross and torturing watching those shows. and lie-detector tests are not always accurate.

i'm tired. imagestation keeps screwing up my uploads. wtf

2005-05-07T00:54:00.000+08:00

i'm so bored i'm blogging.

weird that i seem to have so much time after exams, when the fun things are supposed to happen and keep me occupied. but here i am, perched in front of my lappy, typing senseless things and not logging off until waayy past 1am. yes i do not have any life to speak of. or rather, night life. so theoretically my day life should be good yeah? i dunno. oh yes, salt to the wound, its a freaking friday night and i'm at home with only the internet and tv to keep me company. no wonder nobody's online. hell, i had more life during sch. FUCK! its been a long time since i went out on a friday night. hols just make every day feel the same. crap.

where's all my frens? seems they're rather busy with their own frens. or maybe they think i'm busy. either way, it sux =( i can barely count the number of frens i go out with or keep in touch with. closer frens are even lesser. everyone have their own lives to live. its kinda sad that there's not many ppl i can go to just talk about things and basically do nothing with. nobody has the time for poor lil me =( ohwells. typing all these juz make feel crappier.

1 day more to disneyland yayyy!!
somehow i dont feel the joy i'm expressing in words now.

2005-05-05T00:15:00.000+08:00

i should sleep. but i cant tear away from my comp.
haha.
and msn is really irritating. nobody seems to get whatever i typed.

looking at pictures of beautiful people makes me feel... ugly. ok not exactly ugly, just plain average i guess. see, no matter what anybody says, looks still count. humans are superficial somehow. even i go for the looks of a book or whatever i'm buying. yes shallow, whatever, but u see my point. people enjoy aesthetics. good looking people attract the most glances, have the easiest high paying jobs with all the perks (how hard is it to just smile for the camera or walk down the runway wearing branded clothes that they get for free?), and the best looking other halves. bah. life is unfair. then again, homogeny is a theory.

yet, some great looking people choose surprisingly plain looking people to marry. like actresses who marry ordinary people blahblah. why? insecurity? it does take a truckload of self esteem for someone to be with a gorgeous person. how do you know they wont dump you for someone else that comes along or be unfaithful? trust? for me, i dont trust people that easily. cynical yeah, fatalist and sexist, definately. think the worst of people, and dont habour any expectations. no disappointments, no rejection, no hurt feelings. and i'm just rambling on and on about nothing.

i should slp. yeah i love dling stuff =)

2005-05-03T23:13:00.000+08:00

i'm bored.
i dun wanna work. i hope i dont get the part time thingy, though i would really love the money, but i dun wanna waste my sundays just like that.
i'm just pure lazy la.

disneyworld very very soon!! yeah!! =)=)=) 2 wks seem kinda short now. but of course there's the limited money, not to mention the pricey tickets! air tic, admission, omg. and i wanna go swim with the dolphins but its like freaking ex la. so think i have to be content with noodles and canned food for the nxt fortnight. ohwells, i still have the rides to satisfy me. =)=)

i wonder why everyone says it a loss to the country when somebody important dies. i mean ya, maybe if he died in an accident when he's still young or sthg. but take mr wee for example, he has done his duty to the country, been a very good pres etc. you cant expect him to live forever rite? i just think death is not the absolute end. besides, his life has been meaningful, and i daresay he had enjoyed his twilight years. what next? i think my viewpoint is unique to me. but that phrase just started me thinking.

ahh sianzz!

2005-05-02T23:53:00.000+08:00

there's this unsettling feeling in my chest.
have i not been direct enough? blunt enough? and yet u seem as if nothing has happened at all.
k maybe its my fault for being friendly for once. maybe i should have severed all ties. and gave u the cold shoulder.
or maybe its juz me, being sensitive and stuff.
but its weird to keep hearing things from the past that i'll rather forget. and despite rejecting outings, you dont seem to get the hint do you?
and its freaky that u seem to know me better than i do.
maybe i should have left u alone. and told u the truth.

i'm positive i've made the right decision. why this weird feeling then.
hate myself. why do i always not know what i'm feeling? is this normal?
i need elfyyyy!!!! =( =(
and some comfort.. =(

2005-05-02T19:16:00.000+08:00

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2005-04-29T23:24:00.000+08:00

today's a good day =)

california fitness was good, though i died during cardio kick. its damn tiring to keep kicking la. latin dance was fun ( nv sweat alot.. heh). the instructor was the same guy that came during ct class. fun la. i miss shopping.

then somebody v nice today. yes i think the moon's a deep purple today =p so must blog, coz this may be a once in 10 yrs phenomenon, haha. and Moo came home with me =) he's an overly obese cow with no sexual organs. haha. so cute!

did i mention jade empire's a damn nice game? but i'm getting sick of it. dunno why, but i nv last long in games. i just get bored of them i guess. short attention span. jialat.

disjointed post. me miss elfy!! she's in nice cool switzerland while the weather in spore is disgustingly hot. swealtering. yuck. and she's having lessons in a mountain lodge in the alps i think. *envious* enjoy urself yeah!

ok. i got a fucking c- for analytical skills. apparently i screwed my proj, my assignment and the fucking exam. oh man. the only fucking consolation i can get is that its only a half module. so tog with ct, maybe i scrapped a c+. fucking shit. ahhh. like who ever uses the stupid fallacies of complex questions or equivocation in their entire life?! who gives a damn about reconstructing arguments. dammit.

todays a terrible day =(

2005-04-23T23:54:00.000+08:00

ok. good things first. went night safari! suaku me first time there. it was pretty fun. i like the civets with the super long tails and the otters! though they make a funny squeaky sound much like those rubber balls. it was hot walking around, but i wasn't particularly tired, unlike some old man whom i had to drag around. it was fun seeing the animals! k this enthusiasm isn't gonna last long in me and there's still the zoo to visit! ben and jerry's was just great =) love the scoop shop yay~

got back almost all my sucky grades. ohwells. what can i say. all the university core sux. like who gives a damn about bgs or ct or as. i didn't, look at my sucky grades. arghh. stupid shit. and my most secured subject missed a grade by 2 marks. that really sux to the core. its incomparable to nus and ntu i know where ppl are struggling to pass, its on an entirely different level. ahh u guys won't understand i guess. somehow, now i'm feeling kinda worthless. nothing seems to be going right. and i don't even know where i'm headed to. sometimes i wished i've taken accountancy or sthg, at least after i graduate i have to be an accountant, so the future's rather secured. i don't even know what i'll do after graduation. psych seems to be so underdeveloped in spore, and there're like tons of psych graduates arnd. ntu's offering a psych degree, clinical psych with labs and actual experiments. how cool is that! but why muz they open up the course a yr after i'm already in uni. bahh. this sux. i dunno what i'm doin in social sci. and i'm only good in psych and nothing else.

a half hearted entry. who gives a damn about grades. ahh. i dont feel what i'm saying

2005-04-20T23:41:00.000+08:00

ahh.. elfy's goin switzerland.. and i cant go see her off!! no transport. stupid zhong's so caught up with whatever. bleah. ohwells, she's just going off for 2 mths. 2 whole months! well, at least that's better than a year i guess. ssk's so busy enjoying herself there. oh ya, haven't reply her letter yet. miss those days when i could just call ssk out for a drink or sthg. anyways, back to elfy. switzerland is how nice! take more pics and post them up u hear me?! can u do that on the sch comp? aiyah if cannot just take more and show us when u get back. and most importantly, email me! and lulu. diao* i cant get used to zhihui being lulu.

nyu was alrights i guess. lots of incriminating pictures. heh heh. hor changqi? the programme was alrights la. lame attempt at being entertaining. but the prof was sporting, so were all those osl people. man, they really went crazy ytd. celest and me spent the night looking at couples pda-ing and laughing at weird dancing styles of people. and guys getting all touchy with gals who aren't their gfs. hmmm. guess guys cannot be trusted at all. weak creatures with no self-control. music was good, no complaints there, except for the weird stuff after the mambo ones. i've never danced so much in my entire life! and the dancefloor was so hot, everyone was sweating like pigs. ewww gross. and meng dragged everyone out to dance when he heard uptown girl. haha. oh yeah celest i thk we lost a few kg out there =)

i'm kinda feeling excited about disneyworld. yay! thk i can start thking of what to pack inside. haversack or trolley bag?

2005-04-17T22:49:00.000+08:00

wheee!! its the holidays!! disneyworld!!

k honestly, i was surprised by the surprise party. i was seriously tricked by adam to go ra's hse for mahjong. ahh, me and my current obsession. slap me someone. i noticed the weird little things, but just didn't bother to take them seriously. so now i know whenever someone tries the reverse psychology thingy again, i'll just question every damn thing and make him pek cek. haha. but the party was really nice! all thanx to those thoughtful guys. awwww.. koof for making the nice salad and pasta and bringing the vodka, zhong for peeling the potato (haha!), ron for being the master chef, nick, bob, yy, wendy for being there, and zh and celest for being accomplices and providing entertainment =D adam was like the unwilling accomplice la, just there for the food only. meng was the ultimate blurblock. and of coz ra provided the venue. oh man. i was touched leh. celest and zh especially.. ilu* gals!! =)=)=) to more cr4 days!! or whatever venue we're changing to. hey lets go join the smuve or whatever.

hard to imagine that we're going to be yr2s soon. and i havent got any cca yet!!

i cant wait for disneyworld!! =)
did i mention naruto's damn nice? haha

2005-04-09T16:07:00.000+08:00

i'm so bored i'm blogging. mugging seems like some old hated friend. i hate studying. i'm gonna screw up as and psych and socio. and i'm actually not worried. well, not yet.

had this thought ytd.
cant we girls ever live without guys? i mean, look at all the emotional distress and frustration they cause us, not caring enough, not spending enough time etc. instead of complaining, why not just give up totally. yeah, i guess i'm a closet fatalist. whatever we do, the world is doomed from the start anyway. instead of getting worried about both u and him, why not just worry about yourself. its easier isn't it, one person versus two. think elfy will emphatize with me on this, but maybe not on the fatalistic approach of mine. oh man. pol sci is getting into my head. now, how about some psych. stockholm syndrome -- why some abused wifes stick with their husbands no matter what, or some hostages getting romantically involved with their captors. some weird attachment apparently. like how some girls nv give up hope on finding the right guy even if they got hurt a hundred times by the opp sex. i'm suddenly anti-guys. haha. independence.

realized another thing too. what's the purpose of a blog? means of expressing oneself. for the knowledge of others? inevitably. why publish something to the world if you don't want others to read it? i read blogs where ppl juz whine their asses off about nothing. perhaps they're looking for some compassion? perhaps there's this attention seeking thing inside all of us. or else why do we keep public blogs? no fun juz whining to yourself. yeah think i'm guilty of that. all of us need some recognition sometimes. and for someone to understand the inner turmoil, not like that ever happens.

ah disjointed post. crap. i really dont wanna study anymore =(

2005-03-31T22:24:00.000+08:00

simple plan last night!!
the opening act, pug jelly was alrights la. only heard like 2 of their songs before so yeah. oh did u know they're from spore? all PRs or sthg apparently. doesn't that just makes you wanna pick up a guitar and form a band? haha. thk they write their own songs too.. hmm...

after that we waited for like 30 fricking mins doing nothing and just waiting. ahhh waste my time. $%^#$

k so simple plan finally appeared. the concert was alrights la. music was overly loud. plus stupid adolescent girls were screaming their fucking heads off at nothing. i could have died there. it was like a mix of kids and parents, working people and teenagers. we were like the only in betweens there. funny seeing adults dancing to simple plan. HAHA. 1st rock concert. it could have been better, but i was fine with it. the vocals were good, guitars was good, drums were good, humour was lame, speakers were too loud, crowd was bad.

can the next concert we go to NOT have kids below 18?

2005-03-30T02:22:00.000+08:00

what was initially quite a happy evening turned out to be quite a sucky morning.

bought my humungous haversack!! so nice =) i love it man. though there's this nagging thought behind my brain saying i won't use it as much as i like to, but nvm. i love it now! wanted the 65 litres one initially, then decided on the 55 one, but went to another shop because i thought blue was ugly. then everyone was saying how the 45 one would fit my petite frame better (yeah rite) but i still didn't want the ugly blue. BUT there was this gorgeous beige and light green 45 litres one that i didn't mind. so yeah. i got that =)

after that i decided to play pink panther on the keyboard while adam did the drums. but that was a flop. BUT we tried clocks and it was FANTASTIC! the sense of getting the notes right and playing together was indescribable man. just couldn't get enough of it. but of course nothing beats playing in a real band. i mean symphonic band, not rock band. nv tried so i can't compare. making music with 70 other people in dunman was pure magical. hard to get that feeling back again. ohwells, i'll just make do making music with a few people then =D learnt the drums part for accidentally in love. damn its tiring. my right arm got sore and my leg cramped =X new admiration for drumers now.

yay 27 themes for msn! all raaaa's fault.

2005-03-27T22:09:00.000+08:00

i'm so bored...
so bored that i'm blogging again.
wasted the whole day sleeping my life away. and i just realised i got tons to do. thought everything would be fine after bgs but nooooo there's still AS and socio. ARGHHHH. i'm so screwed for socio. damn.

and i just cannot get my ass off and start studying. its so stupid. i rather sleep then study. oh man. shoot me. and the exams are like in 2 wks time?!!

simple plan concert first. woohoo~ then hell kicks in.

2005-03-26T00:32:00.000+08:00

see, when i do blog i flood.

its at times like this, late into the night when everyone's too preoccupied to talk to me, that i miss the furry presence being around =( its weird there's nothing dashing around the house chasing some imaginary thing, weird there's nothing waiting for me when i open the bedroom door in the morning, weird there's nothing sitting quietly by the door when i return, weird that there's nothing warm and furry for me to pet. miss the times when she'll rub her head on me, insisting that i stroke her more. one thing i don't miss is the stinky smell. ohwells. nothing's perfect right. ahh.. i'm gonna move out and get my own place asap. and gonna have a pet of my very own. think all parents have this thing against all furry things.

socio sux. ended up watching russell peters and initial d instead. tsk. bad influence.
speeding along expressways with the windows down, blasting loud music and travelling to some ulu place in spore like the bottle tree village (?!!) going for spins around spore can be fun, but only if its above 100. crazy i know, and probably impossible. i'll be fine with 120 too by the way. to the western part next time? =D

2005-03-25T16:16:00.000+08:00

ahh.. hot day. sucky socio. stupid as. random ramblings.

it just hit me that exams are in a mere 2 wks time. and i know nuts about socio. and AS. !!! how dead am i. its like so hard to understand socio. or perhaps the book is just badly written. yes blame the book and everything else. i'm so screwed.

reliving vj mugging days in marine parade library. familiar feeling of the tables at level 3, with sh and grace, starbucks, hot cocoa. it seems so long ago and i miss that place. yes that's gonna be my mugging spot from now on.

all i need now is an ipod to complete it. =) *hint*

2005-03-15T16:22:00.000+08:00

due to popular demand i shall BLOG now.
since everyone's in the "thanx for being my fren" mode these days, i shall acknowledge those who made me feel that i belong in smoo.
at the expense of my psych test and socio lesson and bgs proj.
arghh.. anyways thats not the point.

sometimes i wonder, how much would my life change if i hadn't came to smoo.
what if i went nus arts or ntu mass comms? would i be better off there?
i thought of stupid profs such as r.k. who are biased and stuff, who cant tell a good presentation from a lame one and i thk, yeah, maybe i would have been better off elsewhere where muggin's e norm and profs cant mark u down juz coz they dun like your face.

then i thought of the frens i made this sem and all those stupid times we spent in cr4. and i thought yeah, i wouldn't give anything in exchange for them. life would have been so prosaic and school would have been more unbearable if it wasn't for them.

zhihui aka spaz aka lulu: haha so many nicks. u should be shot for being so act cute n stuff. but u know i still love u =) getting along quite fine with ron and zhong i muz say. don't they ever get on ur nerves?!

celest aka elf: oh man, we're so alike its scary. its like discovering my long lost twin or sthg. both of us unloved and ill-treated =( dun worry u'll always have me! =) remember our master plan *wink* fairy lurves elfie!!

meng aka he-elf: thanx for all the rides to sch. and compiling all the reports. and for uniting the fairy and elf. =) not that u ever read this, but yeah. juz to make it complete.

zhong aka zz lover: thanx for the rides to sch too. not that u ever read this, but grow a bone boy.

ron aka initial d supplier: thanx for all the IT support. u're a realli nice guy, juz abit noisy at times.

of coz there's still yy, nick, koof, etcetc. the cr4 gang may even expand next sem to include ra and bob. totally insane man. anyway, u guys realli make sch better. =) so glad that i've met u guys. maybe its sum dhs fate or sthg. haha.

and there's ah mao too. its unthinkable that one small change in the past may result in me nv getting to know u. what if i nv came smu? what if i wasn't in the same og as meng, or the same ltb grp as yy? what if i din stay in the east? what if i hated cats? (haha). the chain effect that led to that day was made up of tiny minute details that are easily overlooked. in retrospect, life is really amazing isn't it? to thk i can find someone who is so much similar to me (with the young looking face, slpin 12 hrs a days, slack, crappy, sui bian, similiar tastes in music, similiar way of thinking etcetc) anyway why am i typing so much? its not like u read it anyway. see, that's why i dun gush abt being so happy and loved like elf. haha. lucky he-elf.

wah long post. u guys better tag ur appreciation. =)

2005-03-14T23:13:00.000+08:00

ah i'm sooo screwed.
psych test is driving me crazy. 6 chaps? i'm so screwed. =(
reports and more reports. presentations. what else?!
ah.. sch is getting suckier by the day.

i wan my holiday NOW! *pout*

indulged in ben and jerrys' and kettle chips.
tsk so sinful.
new york super fudge chunks rawks big time!
so now i'm getting fat too.
arghh..
somebody kill me.

2005-03-08T22:04:00.000+08:00

the hotel and air tickets have already been booked.
I'M GOING DISNEYWORLD!!
days of endless rides, rollarcoasters, shows, and what have you.
not to mention its the first time i'm goin the US.
oh man.
YAYY~~~~
but its gonna be bread and vegetables and water for me.
bah.

have gotten used to my cat. now i have to pet it after i wake up, before i go to sch, when i reach home and before i slp. and in between of coz =D i loveee my cat! but its kinda weird sometimes. and my mother seems to have taken in the cat pretty well. so yay~ again.

work suddenly piled up so high. time to prioritize. bgs and as proj. jap test on sun omg. psych test nxt wk (! i'm so gonna die). i'm not even thinkin of the as individual assignment yet. ARGH. it nv rains. it pours. =(

my taggy's down =( dunno why.

and i would feel ignored now if it weren't for my cat.
its so unfair.
humph.
don't thk u even care.

2005-03-05T00:37:00.000+08:00

guess what.
picked up a cat from ecp and now its lying beside me purring on my couch.
amazing.
though really the purring sounds more like gruttal snoring sounds than nice purrs u hear on tv.

cats are low maintenance.
mummy likes low maintenance.
> cats are the ideal pets which are approved by my mother (though really i have always been more of a dog person)

i've nv really taken notice of cats before adam and 7 of his. i dun mind them, but i dun particularly like them either. the dogs' fur are nicer to touch coz its longer i suppose, but cats aren't that bad.
and they're low maintenance. and they eat disgusing lizards and cockroaches.
absolutely superb.

my cat's name ash. short for ashley. but really coz its fur is ash colour. mummy insisted on ashley coz its a gal. but i'll stick with ash. more seh eh. haha

2005-03-03T15:06:00.000+08:00

why is it that people tend to show their concern and care to their other half through their frens and not directly to the person? fear of being mushy and appearing spineless? isnt it weird that close frens know more about the feelings of the guy instead of the gal? oh yes, we poor gals are supposed to know that they love us and care abt us oh-so-much though majority of the time they seem otherwise. this seems like the universal rule throughout the entire species of male homo sapiens. then again it'll be weird to have a guy gushing his lovey dovey feelings to you 24/7. hmm. and this is not what i wanted to blog about today. ( yes elf i KNOW m loves you. sometimes i thk a doesnt at all. hey we're similar again!)

had this thought while walkin to the mrt station.
what is life?
we go through the same motions every single day. wake up, eat, do stuff to occupy our day, slp and wake up again and go through the same cycle. its so prosaic and meaningless. i mean sure ppl think that doin stuff to help ppl makes life meaningful, but everything's so transient. happiness, satisfaction, jealousy, greed, hunger, emotions, material stuff. the only constant thing in life is change. and all these end with death. even change. we all have to die one day. so whats the point to buying all those extravagant stuff or mugging hard to get a good job in the future or finding the one to love or watever. whats the point of heartache and thinking about your other half when death is inevitable. whats the point of temporal satisfaction of our needs and desires. maybe we should all lie down somewhere and wait for death to consume us. everything else like not being perfect and sitting around waiting for you seem so trivial and unimportant.

jaded post. no i haven't started reading prozac nation yet. maybe this time i'll understand it better.

2005-02-28T22:43:00.000+08:00

academy awards now. its really interesting and refreshing how they diss bush, the govt and fellow actors. haha. imagine that happening in spore. and the flood of letters to forum thereafter. dreadfully pathetic. everyone here is so sheltered and thk their narrow viewpoint is all that matters. doesn't help that the pap and hence govt holds everyone on a tight leash. its time for freedom of speech!

dunno y i'm feelin kinda lousy these days. its like everyone's better than me. and i'm juz some loser shit who'll nv catch up. i'm not pretty enough, not thin enough, not smart enough, not hardworking enough. feelin insecure and inferior abt myself. happiness seems transient and short-lived. perhaps there's this curve for this. the higher u go, the harder u fall. so maybe i should be worried if i ever experience such happiness again. so conclusion is that the best is not to happy at all?

i thk i'll start reading prozac nation again.

2005-02-25T19:07:00.000+08:00

was doing my stupid fallacies when i had this compelling urge to blog.
about nothing in particular.
perhaps rotting at home has gotten into my head. yeah i'm quite sure i'm not a homely person. why rot in a constrained area of space where there's the rest of the world for u to rot in.

i sound rather cynical. but its in this voice where i type freely and all the crap just comes tumbling out onto the keyboard. like my previous post about the story of 2 nuts. no i will not write a book now, but perhaps in the future, so not to disappoint my no.1 fan. *wink*

sex in the city rox. have to finish watching it soon. the issues they cover are so unreal yet real at the same time. but it seems like they tend to complicate matters abit. rights.

2005-02-25T00:45:00.000+08:00

by popular request, i'll narrate my rather eventful tuesday.
after an unsuccessful attempt of studyin psych at the airport, some big nut suggested buyin soil and planting flowers in his long pot. and this other smaller nut agreed. and there the 2 nuts were, lugging 3 -5 kg worth of stuff under the hot scorching sun for some 1km. (alrights i'm exaggerating, but the effect's there rite!)
anyway gardening was rather fun. the small nut found out she liked mixing stuff up. but whether the marigolds or magnolias or watever can grow, its all up to the big nut. and the sun. and the cats. and watever.
anyway after gardening (which was kinda fast), the big nut got into a car washing mode as the blue cooper was dirty and so enlisted the small nut to help wash the suds away. boy that was a big mistake. the small nut decided she rather wash the dirty big nut than the dirty car. of coz that was because the big nut instigated the suds vs. water war. obviously the small nut emerged victorous =)

*phew* that's it folks. my 1st brush with gardening and car washing. and nuts.

2005-02-25T00:08:00.000+08:00

mambo ytd! music was kinda sucky. absolut kurant rox, but with ice pls. its so spicy it gets to ur nose. it was actually fun playin stupid drinking games, if u're not the victim that is. and i saw kanghao n veronica! they look so different. esp those vj band gals whom i've forgotten the names. oops. but there's no longer any great pull towards zouk. juz maybe the fantastic company =)

i feel kinda happy these days. blissful even. sounds cliche i know. and this time feels so different from the previous ones. unreal maybe? guess now i truly understand what those ppl mean.

and the antisocial fairy has found a fren in the antisocial elf! no wonder we click so well. yay =)